Not many people talk about the issues of working mothers: the fatigue, the incessant mental juggle between work and family (yes, even at home), the guilt (both ways, at work and at home!), and the stress.
But as a working mum, I relish the challenge, especially the multi-faceted roles. I cannot live without my family, yet I cannot live without work that is stimulating. I cannot bear to leave the kids for work, yet I am thinking of work while I am at home sometimes. I cannot truly enjoy working, knowing I could've done a much better job mentoring my kids at home, yet, I know I will not give up on my work that excites my mind.
Life as a working mum is all about dilemmas. And choices. And decisions that we should never regret. Be it taking leave and immersing ourselves totally with our children, irregardless if our office needs us at work. Be it working long 12-hour days or travelling overseas for work, leaving our kids pining for us. Be it feeling truly tired yet peeling open our eyelids to stay awake to spend coupletime with Hubby, watching a home movie or just chatting.
It is always about choices and decisions that we make and never should regret. It is a long journey of constant "what-ifs".
And thanks to my good friend J, who sent me this trailer from Youtube for Sarah Jessica Parker's latest movie "I Don't Know How She Does It", it kinds of reminded me to savour the moment at this time when work is gruelling, when I have to help prepare Big Bee for her final exams, when I have to start preparation work for Little Bee's birthday party. But indeed, to be able to do all these and more, it just indicates that we are alive and healthy, that we have family and friends loving us, around us, that we can still contribute productively at work.
Little blessings in arduous times :)
2 comments:
Yes Linette, I Don't Know How YOU Do it!
Fon: I am losing it actually (that's why my reply to your comment is more than a month late!). Been getting frazzled these days!!
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